a whole lot of nothing

everyday i have lots of conversations, everybody does i suppose. but why do i get the feeling there's a whole lot of nothing happening? despite there being so much on the surface stuff around to do, i find a lot of people just passing the time to get to the next hour.
the other day, L calls me. he calls to tell me about how he's eating fishballs along pasong tamo. duh. we have a laugh. like we always do. i just have to laugh at this guy. he'd make an interesting case study: people who are emotionally disengaged from their lives.
i guess that conversation exemplifies the whole mood of today. we talked i think for over an hour. arguing and bantering about every single thing that we don't agree on. and in the end, it was a whole lot of talk about nothing. i know it. he knows it. i don't know why he insists on communicating. we're not even friends in the true sense of the word. you know how demanding i am of my friends. i don't know why i take his calls. maybe just to pass the time? i agreed to go out with him friday night. man, am bored. in the words of kaye: "eh parang if you don't go out naman, parang boring."
i have TOO MUCH TIME on my hands. hay naku. did i get so used to the rush of dealing with twenty million issues all at once that now i don't know what to do with down time???